EPIPHANY - [i-pif-uh-nee]; a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.
Welcome to 2010. I am now 35 years of age and little older and wiser. I'm a bit more intuitive, much more self-aware, and a bit more self accepting. Have you ever undergone an introspective moment in your life where everything just suddenly fell into place and you could hear your brain saying "A HA!"? It's as if the stars aligned, purpose became clear, and focused sharpened. At that very moment anything you choose to accomplish can be done with minimal effort; you are self motivated and determined.
I had one of those moments during my birthday weekend.
For some time now I have been struggling with a number of decisions to make that will influence my future directions. I have always known what the outcomes should be, but there have ALWAYS been multiple paths. It makes it incredibly difficult to decide on one course when there are so many options to choose from. I am also an incredibly proud and extremely self-reliant person, so asking for guidance isn't one of my strong suits, particularly because I have been running the show of my life since I was about 15 or so. Add to that complete independence at 17, lack of parental guidance or involvement during the college selection process, emancipation, and total financial independence all around the same time.
I won't disclose what my future directions are because as a wise man once told me, "You should NEVER reveal your dreams to ANYONE because they will talk you out of them." So I didn't write this for advice, but as a means of documenting and silently articulating what those goals are.
What I will disclose is that I have secured admission to a program that my science background will prove useful. I am excited about the prospect and no, I have not abandoned Law School. Ive simply altered the path to get there.